Austin! This is a fantastic piece. It really does flow. And it's raw, and unfiltered. I agree with a lot of things you say. In one way substack is just another social media, but I do feel the connections here are more sincere, and we're here to feed our brains rather than numb them which makes a major difference. I don't think you should delete your account or your content, although I wouldn't presume to tell you what to do of course. You mustn't worry too much about how your writing is received, or the states of people reading it. Every reader has a different personal experience, and you cannot be responsible for each of those. You can only try to write your own truth as authentically as possible, and you do a great job at that. The way you glide through a number of different ideas and then bring this text to such a beautiful climax is just wonderful.
Awww!! Thanks Jessie, I appreciate the support. I can’t leave Substack because I am invested now in keeping up with the interesting and talented people I’ve found. I was just writing my crazy thoughts as usual. I think I just need to do some editing on my older posts, not that anyone reads the old stuff anyway. 🤷♂️😅✨💖
Appreciate the honesty about influence anxiety. The tinderbox metaphor captures something real about publishing in volatile times, but I've found the fear of misinterpretation often stems from overestimating precision and underestimating readers' agency. Writing from emotional truth without a blueprint can feel risky, but it's also where the most geniune connection happens. The perfectly imperfect framing at the end is kind of the whole point tbh.
Great comment!! Thanks for reading. I’m a perfectionist so knowing that nature is perfectly imperfect helps me to remember things are not supposed to be perfect.
Substack will miss your posts,I will miss your work,why have you decided this is totally your personal choice but I must say you were writing beautifully 🫶
Aw thanks Hina. I was actually always planning on deleting all my posts and moving my stuff to a website that I created. I have all my work saved. Anyone else who would like to join me is more than welcome to post their stuff there too. I think I’m going to call it the Sunshine Circus. Like an online art gallery, I haven’t figured out all the details yet, but I have some ideas.
This was incredibly raw. It was so well put, but I have to remind you — I don’t think any of us truly know what we’re on about. I believe we’re shedding, using an outlet, a screen that projects.
One of my favorite things about your writing is that it isn’t clinical. It stands out. it’s unmissable, and I hope you never cease to write, despite it all. ♥️
Thank you Noor!! I appreciate your insight and you taking the time to read this. One of my favorite things about your comment is that I can tell without a doubt that it is not generated by AI. 😊 You’re right, I have no formula or blueprint. I never know what the finished product will be until it’s done. That’s why I find this type of writing so interesting. And your writing is amazing!! 🫶🏼 You keep writing and I will also, deal?
At the risk of you thinking me to be AI, I feel compelled to comment.
Not recklessness but more like waking up to the weight of your own voice.
You didn’t come with a hypothesis, you came with pressure. That kind of writing isn’t unsafe by default; it’s diagnostic. It tells the truth about a state of mind, not what anyone should do with it. Your unease isn’t a failure of the experiment, it’s evidence you understand that words move people, even when written in fog.
The beauty you land on says more than the fear: ruined, breathing, still trying. That’s not chaos, it’s reverence for survival.
Maybe the point isn’t deletion or control. Maybe it’s witnessing without pretending the witness is clean, finished, or harmless.
Thank you for sharing so honestly and with such raw clarity. I’ve come to appreciate the paradoxes you name here: the light and dark, chaos and order, despair and beauty. Nature is one of my greatest teachers too, constantly reminding me of the necessary balance between growth and decay. Like you, I struggle with how social media shapes perception, yet I also value the real connections I’ve made here, people who meet life with depth and honesty. Your voice is one of those.
Thank you for reading!! I have no idea what I’m doing most of the time, but if nothing else, my writing is definitely honest. Maybe too honest, that’s what I worry about. I do think we can learn so much from observing the patterns of nature.
Don’t go! Please!
Austin! This is a fantastic piece. It really does flow. And it's raw, and unfiltered. I agree with a lot of things you say. In one way substack is just another social media, but I do feel the connections here are more sincere, and we're here to feed our brains rather than numb them which makes a major difference. I don't think you should delete your account or your content, although I wouldn't presume to tell you what to do of course. You mustn't worry too much about how your writing is received, or the states of people reading it. Every reader has a different personal experience, and you cannot be responsible for each of those. You can only try to write your own truth as authentically as possible, and you do a great job at that. The way you glide through a number of different ideas and then bring this text to such a beautiful climax is just wonderful.
Awww!! Thanks Jessie, I appreciate the support. I can’t leave Substack because I am invested now in keeping up with the interesting and talented people I’ve found. I was just writing my crazy thoughts as usual. I think I just need to do some editing on my older posts, not that anyone reads the old stuff anyway. 🤷♂️😅✨💖
Appreciate the honesty about influence anxiety. The tinderbox metaphor captures something real about publishing in volatile times, but I've found the fear of misinterpretation often stems from overestimating precision and underestimating readers' agency. Writing from emotional truth without a blueprint can feel risky, but it's also where the most geniune connection happens. The perfectly imperfect framing at the end is kind of the whole point tbh.
Great comment!! Thanks for reading. I’m a perfectionist so knowing that nature is perfectly imperfect helps me to remember things are not supposed to be perfect.
Substack will miss your posts,I will miss your work,why have you decided this is totally your personal choice but I must say you were writing beautifully 🫶
Aw thanks Hina. I was actually always planning on deleting all my posts and moving my stuff to a website that I created. I have all my work saved. Anyone else who would like to join me is more than welcome to post their stuff there too. I think I’m going to call it the Sunshine Circus. Like an online art gallery, I haven’t figured out all the details yet, but I have some ideas.
"Nature is perfectly imperfect" yes bro! That is the best truth I know! Great piece and enjoy to write don't worry about people thoughts
I will try. I may start posting enigmas like you do instead of being so straightforward 😁
Your writing is great like it is bro
Thanks Nick!! I want to take it to the next level though, I always feel I could have done better.
Great man! It's always a good idea to think about the next step!
This was incredibly raw. It was so well put, but I have to remind you — I don’t think any of us truly know what we’re on about. I believe we’re shedding, using an outlet, a screen that projects.
One of my favorite things about your writing is that it isn’t clinical. It stands out. it’s unmissable, and I hope you never cease to write, despite it all. ♥️
Thank you Noor!! I appreciate your insight and you taking the time to read this. One of my favorite things about your comment is that I can tell without a doubt that it is not generated by AI. 😊 You’re right, I have no formula or blueprint. I never know what the finished product will be until it’s done. That’s why I find this type of writing so interesting. And your writing is amazing!! 🫶🏼 You keep writing and I will also, deal?
Deal ✌🏻 (and to think, No AI has become the height of all creative compliments. Oh, the world we live in…😂)
Not yet. It plays dumb and lies, it doesn’t want us to understand its true capabilities. Maybe I’m paranoid, no I’m definitely paranoid 😂
lol, don’t be. It IS dumb!
You’re right! In the true sense of the word it actually is dumb. 💖
At the risk of you thinking me to be AI, I feel compelled to comment.
Not recklessness but more like waking up to the weight of your own voice.
You didn’t come with a hypothesis, you came with pressure. That kind of writing isn’t unsafe by default; it’s diagnostic. It tells the truth about a state of mind, not what anyone should do with it. Your unease isn’t a failure of the experiment, it’s evidence you understand that words move people, even when written in fog.
The beauty you land on says more than the fear: ruined, breathing, still trying. That’s not chaos, it’s reverence for survival.
Maybe the point isn’t deletion or control. Maybe it’s witnessing without pretending the witness is clean, finished, or harmless.
Thank you for sharing so honestly and with such raw clarity. I’ve come to appreciate the paradoxes you name here: the light and dark, chaos and order, despair and beauty. Nature is one of my greatest teachers too, constantly reminding me of the necessary balance between growth and decay. Like you, I struggle with how social media shapes perception, yet I also value the real connections I’ve made here, people who meet life with depth and honesty. Your voice is one of those.
Thank you for reading!! I have no idea what I’m doing most of the time, but if nothing else, my writing is definitely honest. Maybe too honest, that’s what I worry about. I do think we can learn so much from observing the patterns of nature.